Chuckle. They're funny. Or they seem to you that way. Normal boy girl attraction. You take the salt shaker and pass it over the table with your loud friends' banter and they grab it form your hand. The shape of their hands. Sexual tension. Locking eyes. Late night chats. Very indirect admiration. Perfectly concealed jealousy. Unspoken rules set. Infinite conversations. Pounding hearts. Minutes staring at phones. Heart skipping a beat when receiving a notification and it's from them. Heart skipping a beat when it's not. Talk. Joke. tease. Flirt. Know. Argue. Discuss. Grin. Dream. Daydream. Make excuses. Smile into the nothing. Over-expect. Pause.
You wait and wait. You really wanna run and ask and call but pride. Music. Doodles. Imaginary dialogues. Anxiousness. Forgive them? Forget it? Give them the benefit of the doubt? Not working. Blame them. Nervousness. Can't complain because you were never really a thing. Were you? Weren't you? Re-reading messages. Re-living moments. Again, music.
Try to subside it. Remember it every now and then. Smile into the nothing. Smile fades quickly leaving bitter trails. You cope. You move on. At last, you're okay. You're fine. You're good.
Then they show up.
With no signs. They show up after a million seconds with a casual 'hey'. No, you don't show up after a million seconds with a casual 'hey'.
You wait and wait. You really wanna run and ask and call but pride. Music. Doodles. Imaginary dialogues. Anxiousness. Forgive them? Forget it? Give them the benefit of the doubt? Not working. Blame them. Nervousness. Can't complain because you were never really a thing. Were you? Weren't you? Re-reading messages. Re-living moments. Again, music.
Try to subside it. Remember it every now and then. Smile into the nothing. Smile fades quickly leaving bitter trails. You cope. You move on. At last, you're okay. You're fine. You're good.
Then they show up.
With no signs. They show up after a million seconds with a casual 'hey'. No, you don't show up after a million seconds with a casual 'hey'.
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